Tuesday, November 3, 2009

The Necklace

My therapist suggested I give the baby a name. Even though we didn't know what we were having, she told me to follow my instinct and pick a name. It didn't take a lot of thought, I knew the baby was a girl, and I knew we would have given her a name that started with the letter A.

And so she was to be my Angelina. My Angel.

I never told anyone (even Aaron) about this task I had been assigned, or the name I had picked, but when I talk to her, I call her Angelina. It has helped my grieving process tremendously. And I hadn't ever planned to tell anyone....

Back in October, Casey posted a picture of one of the couture pieces from The R House Etsy Shop. I emailed the link to Aaron and asked him to buy me one of the necklaces for my birthday, and to surprise me with what it said.

It came in the mail last week, and I didn't even want to peak because I love surprises! I couldn't wait for my birthday so I could see which one of the pieces he had chosen!

Last night, I was very sad and missing my baby so much. Aaron and I had a wonderful, heartfelt talk about all we'd been through, and I told him that my therapist had recommended I give the baby a name. After giving it some thought, he asked me if we could call her Angel. My tears turned to sobs as I told him I had been calling her that all along, and then he asked me if he could give me my birthday present a few days early.

angel

Of course. She's always been our Angel.


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34 comments:

  1. Stephanie Wilson she/her @babystephNovember 3, 2009 at 8:47 PM

    Um, wow. That is awesome, Natalie. Many hugs.

    Steph

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  2. Jess :)November 3, 2009 at 8:52 PM

    That is not only a beautiful necklace, but a more than beautiful story.

    An ANGEL she is and will ALWAYS be.

    Thank you for sharing that story, Natalie.

    Lots of hugs :)

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  3. Laura MarchantNovember 3, 2009 at 9:52 PM

    Oh that brought tears to my eyes.
    Beautiful.

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  4. AnonymousNovember 3, 2009 at 9:52 PM

    Wow. Thank you for sharing such a beautiful story and for showing us your necklace which holds incredible meaning and so much more. Thank you again.

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  5. Loce UsNovember 3, 2009 at 10:00 PM

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  6. moosh in indy.November 3, 2009 at 10:00 PM

    SOB.
    So happy this all came together for you.
    Brilliant stuff those ladies make.
    xoxo

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  7. Amanda @ High Impact MomNovember 3, 2009 at 10:13 PM

    Oh Natalie.
    Tears.
    Thank you for sharing.

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  8. AnonymousNovember 3, 2009 at 10:42 PM

    One word: Wow. Another: Beautiful. Thanks so much for sharing with us.

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  9. AnonymousNovember 4, 2009 at 12:43 AM

    I am so glad that you and your husband are on the same page and in sync with each other. It is a beautiful necklace and I'm so glad that you are slowly healing and you have a good therapist. (((HUGS))) to you my dear.

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  10. Bacardi MamaNovember 4, 2009 at 6:32 AM

    Oh Natalie, you have started my day with tears by tugging at my heart strings. What a beautiful story and an even more beautiful husband. Your necklace is perfect.

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  11. Jenny | The Balow BunchNovember 4, 2009 at 9:29 AM

    I love this story. Everything you write, I relate to on so many levels. I love the necklace, it's so perfect.

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  12. Kathy CampbellNovember 4, 2009 at 10:20 AM

    That is so beautiful. Your Angel has touched so many, and made such an impression. That necklace is beautiful as well.

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  13. Beth at I Should Be Folding LaundryNovember 4, 2009 at 10:40 AM

    Beautiful.

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  14. Nice to meet you, my name is Speed BumpieNovember 4, 2009 at 10:50 AM

    Very nice story! Wonderful

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  15. Lindsey from The R HouseNovember 4, 2009 at 10:53 AM

    sobbing.

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  16. AnonymousNovember 4, 2009 at 10:54 AM

    Not fair to make me cry at work right before a company meeting! Bless your heart.

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  17. UnknownNovember 4, 2009 at 11:24 AM

    Oh my goodness, I am bawling. Love that you shared!

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  18. Nathan and Nikki HilleryNovember 4, 2009 at 11:26 AM

    This is beautiful. Thank you for sharing. Please know that you continue to be in my thoughts and prayers.

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  19. JuliaNovember 4, 2009 at 11:32 AM

    Beautiful. I am so glad that you decided on a name. I know it made a difference for me in healing. I wanted to share with you this link (I plan on ordering one for our Christmas tree): http://www.aplacetoremember.com/mall/subcat_list.asp?catID=5&subcatID=57.

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  20. Aunt JenNovember 4, 2009 at 1:23 PM

    Most.beautiful.story.ever. I love you Angel and always will.

    Your Great Aunt Jen

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  21. UnknownNovember 4, 2009 at 2:08 PM

    Casey is my best friend. I know this same sorrow so intensely. My heart is with you and your Angel. This story has me weaping. Love you.

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  22. MeganNovember 4, 2009 at 4:39 PM

    Beautiful. Amazing.

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  23. Sarah ViolaNovember 4, 2009 at 8:51 PM

    Oh, Natalie. This is so beautiful.

    Love to you and Aaron and Angelina.

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  24. AnonymousNovember 7, 2009 at 12:28 AM

    Natalie, this is an awesome blog. So very beautiful - thanks for sharing!

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  25. Missy and JPNovember 7, 2009 at 9:21 AM

    Oh sweet Natalie! I'm so glad you have such amazing support from your hubby and that God knew well in advance that you needed this special moment together. The necklace is beautiful...wear it with pride my friend as only a mommy would do! I wish I could take the pain away for you- I believe wonderful things are just around the corner for you and in the mean time, you have such special ministry going with other couples who have walked or are walking in your shoes. Hugs! :)

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  26. Sara JoyNovember 7, 2009 at 7:22 PM

    Oh Natalie, that is so beautiful.
    The story, the necklace, the husband and most certainly your Angelina.
    (hugs)

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  27. Anony MouseNovember 8, 2009 at 12:36 AM

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  28. Anony MouseNovember 8, 2009 at 12:37 AM

    Oh wow. This post made me cry! That is so very touching. Your Angel is with you, and your husband is so sweet. What a beautiful necklace.

    I got the Seeds of Hope in the mail, they are so wonderful. I plan to plant them in the Spring. I recommend them for anyone who is heartbroken. As soon as I opened the envelope tears filled my eyes. Thank you so much.

    I feel I can relate to you so much. I'm sorry we have this in common but I am glad we're not alone.

    I am thinking of you and I am just so, so sorry.

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  29. www.capribythelake.comNovember 8, 2009 at 5:53 PM

    what a beautiful way to remember your little angel, your husband is so sweet, and I think its amazing to see the strength of your marriage shine through as you guys grieve together. Happy Birthday, and thank you for sharing your beautiful necklace, and story with us!

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  30. Summer WillardNovember 9, 2009 at 8:28 AM

    Oh my gosh! I'm so touched by this post. It is truly wonderful how the Lord works to bring us healing and let us know that He is always with us. And I think that name is just absolutely beautiful. She is an Angel dancing in heaven with Jesus. Thank you so much for sharing this with all of us. I pray you have a blessed day!!

    Summer
    www.be-simply-beautiful.blogspot.com

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  31. LoveNovember 19, 2009 at 12:11 AM

    oh, praise God. what a sweet little gift from Him.

    He gave me so many little gifts like this on our journey to Clayton, especially while in Africa. i'd wonder to myself if i was crazy thinking He'd be talking to me in ways like this. OF COURSE He is. He is my very best friend and loves me more than i could ever imagine. of course He's finding tangible ways to comfort me.

    love you.

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  32. Mimi's ToesNovember 20, 2009 at 1:32 PM

    Wow, what a beautiful story! She IS truly a little Angel.

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  33. AnonymousDecember 9, 2009 at 8:43 PM

    ((HUGS)) I miss my baby too, it's been only two days since my miscarriage and I feel so lost, in so much pain :( don't know was it a boy or a girl, nothing, don't even have a ultrasound picture :(
    You picked a beautiful name for your baby ((HUGS)) and that is a wonderful gift!

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  34. AnonymousJanuary 12, 2010 at 5:51 PM

    You are beyond beautiful. Your heart, your writing ... everything. I am so amazed by you constantly. I love you, my sweet Nat!
    Barbara

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